Themes That Surface Repeatedly

This is from One of My Blog Posts In 2007 that Popped Back Up Recently and which I've found is still Valid Right Here - Five Years Later. Just goes to show when something is 'A Truth', it's Stands in Time!

Everything I've ever known can be boiled down to this and these are what make up my truth as I know it at this moment in time.  The first five are required to access the last four.  More than all the rest, if I continue to return here, and keep these things at the forefront, I will be able to, most of the time, walk the path of my spirit.

Faith

Knowing I won't be hurt by any of this

Trusting in some thing much more vast than I am or can ever even begin to fully comprehend

Knowing if today is hard, tomorrow or the next day will be right

Letting go

Loosing my hold on my 'story' and letting it be only that

Relinquishing my death grip on the handles of my fear

Give up mental gymnastics

Always keep stepping out over and falling back into the abyss

Accepting my humanity

Means knowing some times I will be weak, sometimes I will slip and falter and sometimes my spirit will shine through with brilliant light and I need to be ok with all of these

Accepting responsibility

No more fear based avoidance

It must no longer hold a threat for me

It is the foundation of my power

Without it I am no one, nothing and nowhere but lost

Living from the place of spirit

Using both my mind and my spirit to walk the path

Free Will

Understanding that all of the above are what make it up, and are the only way to it

God will take the back seat for as long as we let him

It can be fully utilized only if we are willing to relinquish, surrender and succumb when necessary

It is so much more and so much less than most people ever realize

Power

Its real and its also an illusion

When I own it there is no need to fear it

It's part of me, not something separate

It is within me and also has a separate, conscious source

With great Power comes great Responsibility

I have to see, accept and respect all its aspects before I can stand in it

Energy

It is a by-product not the means

It is the interface with the Divine and the Field

It is a tool

It is both everything and nothing

If I own it, I won't hurt myself or anyone else

Without it, I have no connections to anything

I have to understand it in order to be responsible within it

Whatever I find it to be is only a smidgen of its totality

It is the most powerful force in the universe at the place where it meets the Divine

It is always with me and can bring me into direct contact with my spirit and the Divine

Inner and Outer Connectedness of all things

It is the Field

I can tap into and access all that I will ever need with it

It can be accessed via proper application of all of the above

Like energy it contains vast power

It is a manifestation of Divinity

It will carry and supports me always

It will catch me always

Energy is but one of its components

It is vast and all encompassing beyond any level of human comprehension

We gain access to it by the grace of God and through the path of our spirit

It is where we are meant to live our lives from

The Sins of The Father

In most cases, when parents have the concern or issue of passing the 'Sins of the Father' onward to their children, we usually think in terms of the negative aspects of our human nature, our weaknesses, sins, vices, low morals and even depravity at times.  In these cases, we try to resist wallowing in the accesses of flesh and desire.  But what of the cases where the 'Sins' are turned inside out and back upon ourselves?  When wallowing is the furthest thing from out minds and instead, we find ourselves in a constant state of vigilance against and at times even at war with, the Frailty that is at the very core of the nature of Humanity itself.  What is one to do, when the  sin you carry  to which you cannot succumb, are that one  thing which, as a human being,  you can also never truly overcome?

What happens when a parent sets the things for his childs grasp always just a bit outside his reach, so that he will stretch, so that he will test, find and know his limits?  Head and Shoulders above words and lessons, a parents actions lived across the childs lifetime become a role model that indoctrinates that childs mind and being more steathily and surely than any other possible influence in their lives.  Those things that happen to us in our childhood are either what we become or what we over come.  It all comes down to one or the other.

Speaking to myself,  I now see the 'Sins of My Father', how I  got here, what was role modeled and laid out before me.  I know why I cannot forgive myself the fraility and weaknesses of my humanity, why I hate and fight at their existance so in me.  I also know how to still at the same time, love and honor myself, most of the time.  But my point here is this, even with this understanding, I still fight this demon and I do see now it is a demon, a weakness and a 'sickness' made no more noble than sins of the flesh, simply because I am holding myself up to a 'higher' calling or 'standard' .  Just because you sacrifice yourself upon an alter of your own making, it does not necessarily make that alter more worthy or valuable to you.

Does the child,  grown to  a young man,  rail against what he is not, becaause he thinks, knows he is good enough to be, should be that thing he yearns for,  here and now, becaue he is ready for it to be part of,  or to let it go from,  his life?  Or is he simply imitating the actions of the Father modeled for him over all those years?

Do the 'Sins of the Father' sound like this?

"You can be more, you can do more, you should do more, show me more, give me more, you are more,  try harder, reach further, do better, Always Be More"

And Then -

"I can be more, I should be more, I should have been more, I could have been more, I will be more, I will do more, I will become more, I will not be silent and still"

Ultimately, though there is no personal payoff in mayterdom or self-flaggelation, it only leads us as this has, in circles.  For I was that child upon whom the 'Sins of the Father' were perpurtrated, and I am that parent who has in turn, purpurtrated those same 'Sins' and I now have children whom I must watch in their own daily rituals of self-torture, and it has taken this, sadly, all, for me to see things clearly.  My self crucifxition and the mirror image I now encounter daily in my children as they do the same, does Nothing to bring us closer to Who, What and Where we want to be.  It Serves No Purpose, save perhaps other than to present a distraction from the real work that lay at hand  before each of us.  And maybe that was the point all along. 

For I Believe Everything Here Returns to That One Simple Statement:

 "Those Things That Happen To Us In Our Childhood Are Either What We Become Or What We Over Come"

I now see that this is what it has always been about.  It's about how long it takes for us to actually grasp this concept in our lives, to feel the truth of it.  Then it is about how long it takes for us to decide which parts we want to be and which parts we want to overcome or let go of.  Once we are able to do that, there are no more  "Sins Perpertrated', because we carry no more sins within.  The Cycle is then broken, Our Reach Finally Meets Our Grasp and We Are Freed!

My Final Arrival

I have it seems, finally arrived after having spent the years from the ages of 15 to 44 in one sort of waiting/holding pattern or another.  My current spiritual & mystic level has brought me to a place I never dreamed I would reach, Complete Understanding, or at the Very Least with the Tools to attain something near to it,  and simply for  the asking to boot!. Imagine my surprise to discover we were meant to take that ancient statement “Ask and You Shall Receive” Literally!

These things  were not, however, the marker that notified me of my arrival at my Long Awaited Destination. Instead it was this at first subtle shift , that I am able to feel within, ‘My Sense of Self’, as it were.  I am no longer  ‘becoming’, but have now ‘become’. I am no longer stuck ‘being’, in a place which I cannot wait to escape, but am  finally, after all of this time, ‘Doing’ and the experience of it is unbelievably Fantastic!!  I can feel with each application and use of my new attributes and abilities, their perfect fit and match to what I know I was created and meant to be and do. 

For the first time in my entire existence, I know that all of “Me” is in the right places, every part of what I am fits together exactly as it is supposed to.  I am much to my joy and amazement, a fully Functioning, Real, Articulated Human Being,  something I’ve never had the pleasure of experiencing in my life before this. First the Huge, Gaping Wound at the Center of My Being was Closed. Then I came to know myself as a Whole and Complete Person. And now it seems the Engine has Finally Fired Up and here I am, Toddling out on my own just in time to participate in the Birth of an Entirely New World, as it unfolds all around me.  I carry this sense of ‘Rightness’ within myself not previously present, and  when I act  it is with knowledge and purpose.  I am now engaged and connected to all that I see and know and encounter, to all of that which exists around me, no longer residing in a state of isolated separateness, instead I am fully Integrated and Connected to All That Is.

And I gotta say, The Whole Thing is Pretty Frickin’ Kewl!!

Parenting Indigo Children - Integrity & Consistancy 101

Parenting in General and also Parenting an Indigo (or any other Special & Unique) Child always carries it's own Situational Challenges, as most parents are all to aware. My first challenge overall is remembering 'Not to Take or Make it Personal' between them and myself. My second issue, specifically in relation to  Parenting an Indigo Child, is to remember that sometimes they do think, communicate and behave as others their age do, Imagine That?? :oD Who'd of Thought, huh?


In regards to the first challenge of Parenting In General, 'Not Taking It Personally', I have to say I've found many other parents in the same boat with me and this is one of the first things I work on with Parents who are having 'communication' issues with their children.  I've identified several factors that appear to contribute to this situation.

• As working, career minded working adults, we spend a good majority of our time in professional or occupational environments, interacting with our peers.  There are work & social standards & guidelines that are a given, which we follow on a daily basis without much thought; these standards of communication and behavior are pretty much a 'given'.  When we come home however, we must 'switch gears' as it were, thereby entering into an entirely different mode of not only communication and behavior, but alternative thought processes as well.  In truth, this 'switch' applies to all parents, regardless of their state of employment, because what we are really speaking of here are those 'Socially expected and acceptable behaviours across all levels of our lives.  When our children behave in ways that are rude, unappreciative, ungrateful, thoughtless, inconsiderate and generally self-serving, it can be extremely difficult to practice situational detachment by taking an emotional step back for an objective viewpoint.

When Parenting an Indigo Child, many times as parents we find ourselves in 'Uncharted Territories', with us following our Indigo's lead, rather than Vice Versa. These children fill our lives with wonder and awe, simply by being who they are and doing the things that they are so amazingly capable of doing. At times however, all that 'Specialness' goes out the window and they act like, well, just like 'normal' kids do and does it ever throw me for a loop!! Right about the time you get used to and accept 'Odd, Unexpected and Unbeleivable' as 'Common Place' and the 'New Norm', they go and behave like regular garden variety kids.  Rather than practicing maturity, responsibility, communication and actions beyond their age, they throw you for a complete loop by acting & behaving the way we did as kids. Oh My!! I've noticed with my Indigo's some contributing factors in trying to figure out how to handle these flipping of the switches.

• These behavior changes seems to happen after a steady or sudden period of growth or an  intense utilization of their gifts and abilities beyond the norm for them. 
• When they have been sick with a cold or flu, or have been isolating themselves over a period of time.
• When they feel unheard, misunderstood, overlooked or unappreciated.
• When they feel as though they have been backed into a corner, losing their sense of power and control over either themselves, their abilities, social interactions, or their home life in general.
• Sometimes it's as if they just 'Need' to 'Act' like a 'Normal' kid for awhile. I've observed that this is the Indigo's form of 'Blowing off Steam', odd though it may seem/sound to us.

In both cases I've found that calmly (and objectively) indentifying the behavior in question, setting agreed upon boundaries and in certain cases letting the child take the lead in 'Problem Resolution' can go a Long Way very Quickly, at least in our home.  

Lots of Deep Breaths, walks around the block together and seperately do amazing things for objectivity and creative conflict resolution. 

Best of Luck and Remember Above All Else to Maintane Respect, Objectivity and Consideration on All Levels, While Always Acting With and Out of Love for Each Other Above All Else!

Namaste!

Merkaba As The Path of Asencion - Link

 It was only a few short years ago that I felt myself to be arrogant and audacious to presume to have the spiritual intent to attain ascension within this lifetime.  Time, Space and Energy made quick work of me over a very short period of time, so that I now feel that with a carefully followed path and purpose, this may be a realistic possibility for me with in this life time. Indeed, I now see I have ONLY this lifetime to accomplish this, practice and parlor games are done and I will not have another 'Do-Over'.  It's here and now, or never for me.

And lo and behold, I came across the following video, once again being lead down my chosen path by my 'Sophia' to who I am literally eternally grateful! It is my hope that others will find their way in this as I now have.



May you find and enter your own Merkaba in this way! Watch Merkaba Video Here