Themes That Surface Repeatedly

This is from One of My Blog Posts In 2007 that Popped Back Up Recently and which I've found is still Valid Right Here - Five Years Later. Just goes to show when something is 'A Truth', it's Stands in Time!

Everything I've ever known can be boiled down to this and these are what make up my truth as I know it at this moment in time.  The first five are required to access the last four.  More than all the rest, if I continue to return here, and keep these things at the forefront, I will be able to, most of the time, walk the path of my spirit.

Faith

Knowing I won't be hurt by any of this

Trusting in some thing much more vast than I am or can ever even begin to fully comprehend

Knowing if today is hard, tomorrow or the next day will be right

Letting go

Loosing my hold on my 'story' and letting it be only that

Relinquishing my death grip on the handles of my fear

Give up mental gymnastics

Always keep stepping out over and falling back into the abyss

Accepting my humanity

Means knowing some times I will be weak, sometimes I will slip and falter and sometimes my spirit will shine through with brilliant light and I need to be ok with all of these

Accepting responsibility

No more fear based avoidance

It must no longer hold a threat for me

It is the foundation of my power

Without it I am no one, nothing and nowhere but lost

Living from the place of spirit

Using both my mind and my spirit to walk the path

Free Will

Understanding that all of the above are what make it up, and are the only way to it

God will take the back seat for as long as we let him

It can be fully utilized only if we are willing to relinquish, surrender and succumb when necessary

It is so much more and so much less than most people ever realize

Power

Its real and its also an illusion

When I own it there is no need to fear it

It's part of me, not something separate

It is within me and also has a separate, conscious source

With great Power comes great Responsibility

I have to see, accept and respect all its aspects before I can stand in it

Energy

It is a by-product not the means

It is the interface with the Divine and the Field

It is a tool

It is both everything and nothing

If I own it, I won't hurt myself or anyone else

Without it, I have no connections to anything

I have to understand it in order to be responsible within it

Whatever I find it to be is only a smidgen of its totality

It is the most powerful force in the universe at the place where it meets the Divine

It is always with me and can bring me into direct contact with my spirit and the Divine

Inner and Outer Connectedness of all things

It is the Field

I can tap into and access all that I will ever need with it

It can be accessed via proper application of all of the above

Like energy it contains vast power

It is a manifestation of Divinity

It will carry and supports me always

It will catch me always

Energy is but one of its components

It is vast and all encompassing beyond any level of human comprehension

We gain access to it by the grace of God and through the path of our spirit

It is where we are meant to live our lives from

My Final Arrival

I have it seems, finally arrived after having spent the years from the ages of 15 to 44 in one sort of waiting/holding pattern or another.  My current spiritual & mystic level has brought me to a place I never dreamed I would reach, Complete Understanding, or at the Very Least with the Tools to attain something near to it,  and simply for  the asking to boot!. Imagine my surprise to discover we were meant to take that ancient statement “Ask and You Shall Receive” Literally!

These things  were not, however, the marker that notified me of my arrival at my Long Awaited Destination. Instead it was this at first subtle shift , that I am able to feel within, ‘My Sense of Self’, as it were.  I am no longer  ‘becoming’, but have now ‘become’. I am no longer stuck ‘being’, in a place which I cannot wait to escape, but am  finally, after all of this time, ‘Doing’ and the experience of it is unbelievably Fantastic!!  I can feel with each application and use of my new attributes and abilities, their perfect fit and match to what I know I was created and meant to be and do. 

For the first time in my entire existence, I know that all of “Me” is in the right places, every part of what I am fits together exactly as it is supposed to.  I am much to my joy and amazement, a fully Functioning, Real, Articulated Human Being,  something I’ve never had the pleasure of experiencing in my life before this. First the Huge, Gaping Wound at the Center of My Being was Closed. Then I came to know myself as a Whole and Complete Person. And now it seems the Engine has Finally Fired Up and here I am, Toddling out on my own just in time to participate in the Birth of an Entirely New World, as it unfolds all around me.  I carry this sense of ‘Rightness’ within myself not previously present, and  when I act  it is with knowledge and purpose.  I am now engaged and connected to all that I see and know and encounter, to all of that which exists around me, no longer residing in a state of isolated separateness, instead I am fully Integrated and Connected to All That Is.

And I gotta say, The Whole Thing is Pretty Frickin’ Kewl!!

On Self Denial and Being Connected

Copy of LAST Post on October 23rd

I find the human capability to exist in a state of blindness and denial of our true inner selves and motivations is so strange. It’s like we have this capability to go thru life without actually seeing our own reality , going thru the motions of what we’ve been told is a “normal”, acceptable way to live, sometimes without ever realizing what truly drives us. I think that is because a lot of us underestimate the resilience of the human mind. We think we are more vulnerable then we actually are, that if we delve into all that “unconscious” stuff, some irreparable damage might be done. So a lot of us try to function at a very superficial level and avoid looking at what we hold inside of ourselves.
That and the fact that trying to live your life as an awake, aware, mutable, complex being is very hard work. It’s scary, it’s painful, it’s risky. It means acknowledging our past, our failures, our fears, our weaknesses and then accepting them. It means taking full responsibility for all the parts of ourselves, not just the parts we like and are comfortable with. And most of all it means risking failure, rejection, ridicule and being willing to step out into the unknown without having any idea or guarantees as to what will happen or where you will end up.
It means you have to have a deep, strong inner faith in your own strength and abilities and the belief that everything will unfold as it should. You have to be willing to let go of the reigns, to let go of the need to control the outcome of events. All of that is very foreign and even unacceptable to a lot of us.
It’s funny, despite this tendency toward self ignorance, I’ve always tried to have a somewhat long range view of life. All along I’ve done “spot checks” where I’ve looked back on my life and attempted to see and understand the connections between the events in my life leading up to where ever I was at that point.. I’ve also made it a habit to review and try to understand the choices I made, what they were based on and how they effected the end results.
There were times where, in hindsight, it was perfectly clear what had occurred and why. Other times, I just couldn’t see it, didn’t get it. It was like I felt the existence of a larger pattern, but couldn’t quite grasp it. At times it felt like if I pushed too hard it would be like stretching a rubber band past its limit until it broke. At other times it felt like I was being spoon fed knowledge, like I was so close but understanding came so slowly. It was as if there was this filmy curtain between me and what I most needed to see. I used to feel so frustrated because I felt like it was all knowable, definable if I just had the key.
Looking back from my current state, I see things much differently and more clearly. Now I get that I was being guided and protected. I guess it took this long, because I wasn’t ready until now, was unable to remove those blinders. It’s ironic, only when I came to a place where I could admit and accept that there are just some things we can never fully understand and that’s ok, did I truly begin to understand the most important things of all. Now when I look back over my life, I finally can see the patterns and connections, the course of my development, the underlying foundation and motivators, the why of it all.
Its so awe inspiring and humbling when you are able to step back to see the incredible complexity of your own existence. For me, if I ever had any doubts as to a creating, life giving, illuminating, omnipotent universal force and energy, they are completely dispelled. Without one, our lives would just be a series of unrelated, unconnected, random events, with no cause and effect, that lead no where. I see now, more than ever, the beautiful synchronicity of all events. My belief that there are no accidents or coincidences, that everything happens for a reason and serves a higher purpose is stronger than ever.
The power that results from this, is that I now know there is absolutely nothing to fear, inside or outside of myself. I feel freed, I feel connected to a force so strong and all encompassing that I never have to be afraid again. I know now I can handle any loss, any pain, any disappointment, that whatever is to come will just make me stronger, more whole, complete, connected and centered in this existence. It all serves a purpose, its all grist for the mill, I can only become more than I am today, as I go forward.