Themes That Surface Repeatedly

This is from One of My Blog Posts In 2007 that Popped Back Up Recently and which I've found is still Valid Right Here - Five Years Later. Just goes to show when something is 'A Truth', it's Stands in Time!

Everything I've ever known can be boiled down to this and these are what make up my truth as I know it at this moment in time.  The first five are required to access the last four.  More than all the rest, if I continue to return here, and keep these things at the forefront, I will be able to, most of the time, walk the path of my spirit.

Faith

Knowing I won't be hurt by any of this

Trusting in some thing much more vast than I am or can ever even begin to fully comprehend

Knowing if today is hard, tomorrow or the next day will be right

Letting go

Loosing my hold on my 'story' and letting it be only that

Relinquishing my death grip on the handles of my fear

Give up mental gymnastics

Always keep stepping out over and falling back into the abyss

Accepting my humanity

Means knowing some times I will be weak, sometimes I will slip and falter and sometimes my spirit will shine through with brilliant light and I need to be ok with all of these

Accepting responsibility

No more fear based avoidance

It must no longer hold a threat for me

It is the foundation of my power

Without it I am no one, nothing and nowhere but lost

Living from the place of spirit

Using both my mind and my spirit to walk the path

Free Will

Understanding that all of the above are what make it up, and are the only way to it

God will take the back seat for as long as we let him

It can be fully utilized only if we are willing to relinquish, surrender and succumb when necessary

It is so much more and so much less than most people ever realize

Power

Its real and its also an illusion

When I own it there is no need to fear it

It's part of me, not something separate

It is within me and also has a separate, conscious source

With great Power comes great Responsibility

I have to see, accept and respect all its aspects before I can stand in it

Energy

It is a by-product not the means

It is the interface with the Divine and the Field

It is a tool

It is both everything and nothing

If I own it, I won't hurt myself or anyone else

Without it, I have no connections to anything

I have to understand it in order to be responsible within it

Whatever I find it to be is only a smidgen of its totality

It is the most powerful force in the universe at the place where it meets the Divine

It is always with me and can bring me into direct contact with my spirit and the Divine

Inner and Outer Connectedness of all things

It is the Field

I can tap into and access all that I will ever need with it

It can be accessed via proper application of all of the above

Like energy it contains vast power

It is a manifestation of Divinity

It will carry and supports me always

It will catch me always

Energy is but one of its components

It is vast and all encompassing beyond any level of human comprehension

We gain access to it by the grace of God and through the path of our spirit

It is where we are meant to live our lives from

My Final Arrival

I have it seems, finally arrived after having spent the years from the ages of 15 to 44 in one sort of waiting/holding pattern or another.  My current spiritual & mystic level has brought me to a place I never dreamed I would reach, Complete Understanding, or at the Very Least with the Tools to attain something near to it,  and simply for  the asking to boot!. Imagine my surprise to discover we were meant to take that ancient statement “Ask and You Shall Receive” Literally!

These things  were not, however, the marker that notified me of my arrival at my Long Awaited Destination. Instead it was this at first subtle shift , that I am able to feel within, ‘My Sense of Self’, as it were.  I am no longer  ‘becoming’, but have now ‘become’. I am no longer stuck ‘being’, in a place which I cannot wait to escape, but am  finally, after all of this time, ‘Doing’ and the experience of it is unbelievably Fantastic!!  I can feel with each application and use of my new attributes and abilities, their perfect fit and match to what I know I was created and meant to be and do. 

For the first time in my entire existence, I know that all of “Me” is in the right places, every part of what I am fits together exactly as it is supposed to.  I am much to my joy and amazement, a fully Functioning, Real, Articulated Human Being,  something I’ve never had the pleasure of experiencing in my life before this. First the Huge, Gaping Wound at the Center of My Being was Closed. Then I came to know myself as a Whole and Complete Person. And now it seems the Engine has Finally Fired Up and here I am, Toddling out on my own just in time to participate in the Birth of an Entirely New World, as it unfolds all around me.  I carry this sense of ‘Rightness’ within myself not previously present, and  when I act  it is with knowledge and purpose.  I am now engaged and connected to all that I see and know and encounter, to all of that which exists around me, no longer residing in a state of isolated separateness, instead I am fully Integrated and Connected to All That Is.

And I gotta say, The Whole Thing is Pretty Frickin’ Kewl!!

Living With Conscious Intention and Faith

Copy of September 20th Blog

Thoughts on our place in life . . .
One of my most favorite books ever, as shown on my book list , is Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav. Although I will admit that some of it comes across as self rationalized justification, based on the belief that its all ok and on some higher spiritual level every choice and act balances out in the end, I did find that at the age of 27, it changed my life totally, completely and irrevocibaly. Two things mainly hit me at my core. One was the feeling I felt while reading the book that this was all stuff I already knew, it was like I was remembering everything, the way things truely are. It was like having something I'd always felt and known, without even realizing it, put into words.
The second thing was Gary's theory or philosophy of living your life with conscious intention, thereby creating and moving forward with each act, yet at the same time, remaining unattached to the outcome. I began living my life, thinking my thoughts in a completely new way from that moment forward. Seat of the Soul showed me I can drift through life unconsciously, missing my goals and wondering why I seem to keep ending up in the same scenarios, making the same choices, having the same experiences over and over (which is what will continue to happen until you finally "get the lesson" that is being given to you), or that I can wake up and pay attention to the choices being offered me. I can live consciously, with total awareness, making deliberate, intentional decisions and choices. If you are able to live your life consciously and intentionally, you don't really have to worry, struggle, manipulate and manuver to get everything to fall into the place of some long term (or short term) plan you may have. Even years before reading this, on some level I was able to untuit the irrationality of it. I once tryed to illustrate this through a poem I'd written many years before. I can't remember the whole thing, just the line that went "he was a man, blind from birth, trying to paint a picture of a shade of green that he'd never even seen". To me as a 17 year old, that was an analogy for how people get a picture in their mind of how things have to turn out, not realizing that as long as they start out with a picture and a required outcome, they will always be disappointed because nothing ever comes out exactly the way we plan. The tighter you cling to the end result or picture, the more disappointments you encounter. On the other hand, If you can always ask yourself, what do I want from this, why am I making this choice, where will this descision take me, is this something I want or need to experience, is this going to take me closer to what I want to be about, then you will most often be satisfied with whatever you end up with.
The most difficult part of it, the "trick" as it were, is finding the balance between having and holding on very loosely to your goals or direction or purpose, keeping it in sight without drifting, and at the same time being very careful, clear and intentional about the choices and decsions you're making along the way. Holding on loosley, without letting go of your awareness, but being willing to let go of whatever it is you thought you absolutely had to attain while being open to a completely new option that may unexpectedly present itself. And after all that, also learning how to see and accept what you ended ap with instead.
In addition, I have developed a very unique, strong faith that I push on no one, however there is a belief, a way of percieving events that I have come to believe in, which has made an incredible difference in my ability to deal with and accept the things life sometimes throws at my feet.
I believe the bottom line is that God wants us to be happy and to reach a place of light and enlightenment. I believe that he always hands us, shows us, gives us, directs us towards the easiest, lightest and most direct path, if only we will stop, look and listen. Unfortunately there is that nasty little issue of free will, and we as humans tend to be stubborn, willful and single minded. More often than not, its not that (god allows) bad things happen to us, but that we unconsciously, unintentinonally, choose the more difficult path. Other times, things happen the way they do because there is a higher plan, we are being guided, and sometimes, just like small children, things have to be done differently then we may think we want, because thats whats best for us.
I learned that we are all part of and connected to something much larger and more intricate then each of our brief, blink of a life. That sometimes , even when we are completely awake and aware, things go in a completely differrent, sometimes uncomfortable and personally painful direction for us and that thats ok. Ultimately it will come back to heal us whether we are aware of it immediately or not. Sometimes things we can't understand or comprehend need to occur in order for us or someone else to become closer to whole, to heal and to accomplish their purpose for this ride.
When I feel like I've done my best and I still am not where I think I'm supposed to be, I remind myself that sometimes things occur for reasons that I simply will never be privy to. I console myself with the knowledge and deep seated belief that every single event has a reason and a purpose. Even if things don't at this immediate juncture seem to be turning out the way I think they need to be, its OK. Everything is connected, interdependent and serves a larger purpose that is unfolding exactly as it should and there is a place in the middle of all of it thats all mine and is a perfect fit. As long as I remain conscious of my intentions, choices and decisions and remain open and flexible to the outcome, I'm always precisely where I'm supposed to be.